There are some words that I cannot fathom and assemble it to form a complete sentences. There are some words that I can’t even fit them into some of my writings. There are some situation that stops me from making a clear sentences that depict my emotion and what have been bothering my mind quite recently.
I guess this what happened every time I tried to post something here, undoubtedly just for the sake of updating. Please mind this update, cause I sort of drown into this melancholy feeling lately. My thoughts is eating me alive. It’s pathetic. But I solemnly swear I would never sort all of this things out without the help of my beloved friends.
And of course, by writing this down.
I’m not good in writing poetry or any kind of nice words. However I feel like just writing it down. Whatever you call it.
It happens in a flicker of an eye.
A tick before a tock.
A gust of cold wind
A flash of bright light
A short period of time
Like a best kept secret
It swiftly unfold
Time after time
Days after days
Until you come to realize
Where does it come from
Where is it heading to
And why is it happening
Right in every time you meet those eyes
It takes some part of you away
You try to run and take it back
But it stays there
Keeps you longing
It swiftly grow when it shouldn’t be
It swiftly stays where it shouldn’t be
It craves more than it should
And it expect
What it shouldn’t expect.
It comes to the moment when
The time knocks you on the head
It asks you to stop whatever you’re doing
It warns you to take a moment to look back
“Where you’ve gone so far?”
“Where do you want to be?”
“Do you see that huge wall standing in between your way?”
“You won’t be able to pass through. You’re not allowed to”
It left you with two options
Go all the way there, climb, stay and be prepared to fall
Stop what you’re doing, let it go, go back to where you were.
And stay there.
Then, you wouldn’t stumble.
This is what I’ve heard :
“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.”
I’ve made up my mind.
I’ve made my decision
I’ll see you some other time.